Butchered Family

Crumpled up words

that you wrote

on the pages

of us.

Dumpled over, sobbing and

gut wrenched

by you

leaving...

Unpackaged flufffffffk

When I thought

we were solid.

Shipping back a

return exchange

As "your healing"

causes so much pain...

Doing the work

We could've done

together

Had your selfish choices

been executed mindfully better...

As Sundance sadly closes, a tag line on their email news letter is "wild hearts and free spirits accepted." Ooppsie, I got the quote slightly wrong. But, however, comma, I believe both ways to be true to my value system.

As a creative, as an artist, and just as a human adulting as best as I can with childlike faith, I have a high value for freedom. I hate a controlling spirit. As such, walking this out gets messy fast if my goal is to contribute to creating healthy environments where I'm not hypocritical in reciprocating an all encompassing honor, aligned with emBracing, accepting, wanting and prioritizing relationships above debating right from wrong.

"Healthy boundaries are only healthy if instituted in healthy ways." @kimiyaisms

Freedoms rolled out in disrespectful, unprincipled and unjust ways, steal from others' freedoms and are thus hypocritical.

Prochoice is a free-will gift, intituted by God, but is not without consequence.

Not a big deal when you're running and playing light heartedly and just for fun. But when the stakes are high, life or death kind of high stakes, then 'Houston, we have a problem.'

Have you heard the saying, "Hurt people, hurt people.?" usually followed by the antidote, "Free people, free people." But, however, comma and also this: dot.dot.dot...

This adulting $#!% is no joke!

How do you deal with uncertanty? Do you like surprises? Do you prefer strategic planning and solid commitments? How do you respond to things when they don't go according to your plans?

How do you honor those free will choices of others when they at a high stakes level, hurt like hell, grieve you in gut wrenching ways and piss you off?

Maybe or Perhaps......

No, wait, "strike that."....

Childlike and childish are two all together vastly different things. One is innocent, trusting, free spirited, boundless in creative imagination, genius and purposefully productive. But don't be gravely mistaken; the other needs growth and maturity and sometimes a "tapa na sua bunda."

A quote that affirms everything I am writing and trying to live out about childlike faith, was stated by Bill Johnson sharing at Bethel in Redding Ca. only days after his wife Beni had passed into Heaven on Wednesday, July 13, 2022. Bill was doing some serious adulting. By the way, good, bad or ugly grieving, counts as max-effort adulting hard in my book.

“The level of revelation God gives you will always be equal to the measure of mystery you will need to live with. And the inability to live with mystery is your resistance to childlikeness. It’s childlikeness that actually gives us access to dimensions in realms of the Kingdom that you can’t get any other way.” ~Bill Johnson 7/17/22

I don't understand how people do life without childlike faith. We have to have access to realms of peace and joy to opporate in healthy and free ways. Freedom and safety are essential basic human needs.

I haven't arrived at nor perfected what or how to process the balance between the choices we get to juggle when attempting to adult with childlike faith, but I am writing out loud and sharing some helpful things that I have found along the way. For instance, a long time buddy I've enjoyed interacting with on Instagram has very mature widsom to glean from, that I can only imagine was hard earned, but I am also certain was put to good use in his life and will be in yours if you choose...

click to read in Instagram.

If not in the comments, will you at least start this conversation in the privacy of your own inner adult self and with the integrity of your true authentic and boldly honest inner child?

What are the owies that got your heart some nasty booboos?

How can you support finding and instituting some healthy boundaries?

Can you release shame that is impossible to carry?

Where do you need to forgive yourself?

How can you better practice honoring other's boundaries and freedoms?

What are some freedoms you'd like to give yourself permission to explore?

What are some commitments you need to adult better at?

How well are you at willfully choosing between your mind and emotions?

Is there anyone you need to go to and begin cleaning up some messes with?

What does freedom and safety look like for your inner child?

How might you prime the pump on filtering some joy into your daily practice?